So, after my last blog (that sounded more like a little kid screaming to leave me alone).....it was brought to my attention by my wonderful husband to quit trying to make other people happy before myself. He said if I am not happy, then I can't make anyone else happy either.
**sigh** Guess he is right. Time to start doing things for myself. (which still sounds selfish to me)
Apr 15, 2011
Apr 11, 2011
If you would just......
You know what?! I am sick and tired of hearing people say..."If you would just...blah, blah, blah" Or if you "just" change the way you do this or think. I DESPISE the word "Just"
People seem to be full of advice and criticism. Basically, when I hear someone say..."If you would just...." I cringe. You are basically telling me that who I am and how I act is not good enough for you. I don't do it "Your way". Well guess what people...here's a little secret...lean in real close now.....I AM NOT YOU! I don't think, feel, breathe, sleep, eat, or care like you do. WHY are people so adamant about changing everyone else to think like them? I can't even be myself because if I did....no one would know what to do! IF I suddenly started speaking my true mind....people would think I flipped off the deep end and commit me. I NEVER tell people what I am honestly thinking.(UNLESS IT IS TO BE THERE FOR A FRIEND AND LISTENING TO THEIR TROUBLES) That is the only time I am genuinely happy with myself. I bite my tongue and tell people what they WANT to hear and not what they should hear most of the time. I am a people pleaser and that is a curse more than a blessing. It is tiring trying to make everyone else happy. Yet, if I try to do something for myself...I am made to feel guilty like I am being selfish. Well, I want to be selfish sometimes.
I am tired of feeling this "just" thing at work, home, and with friends and family. So please quit telling me that if I would "Just".
I am a good friend, a genuinely caring person that just wants to be me. Love me for who I am and not for who you think I should be. Please?
People seem to be full of advice and criticism. Basically, when I hear someone say..."If you would just...." I cringe. You are basically telling me that who I am and how I act is not good enough for you. I don't do it "Your way". Well guess what people...here's a little secret...lean in real close now.....I AM NOT YOU! I don't think, feel, breathe, sleep, eat, or care like you do. WHY are people so adamant about changing everyone else to think like them? I can't even be myself because if I did....no one would know what to do! IF I suddenly started speaking my true mind....people would think I flipped off the deep end and commit me. I NEVER tell people what I am honestly thinking.(UNLESS IT IS TO BE THERE FOR A FRIEND AND LISTENING TO THEIR TROUBLES) That is the only time I am genuinely happy with myself. I bite my tongue and tell people what they WANT to hear and not what they should hear most of the time. I am a people pleaser and that is a curse more than a blessing. It is tiring trying to make everyone else happy. Yet, if I try to do something for myself...I am made to feel guilty like I am being selfish. Well, I want to be selfish sometimes.
I am tired of feeling this "just" thing at work, home, and with friends and family. So please quit telling me that if I would "Just".
I am a good friend, a genuinely caring person that just wants to be me. Love me for who I am and not for who you think I should be. Please?
Tired
So, I am so tired that I am to the delerious point. My head is fuzzy and hurts. My eyes keep wanting to cross, and I can't seem to keep my eyes open long enough to finish typing.......... *snore*...huh? What? Oh yeah, anyway...I hope that everyone has a great Monday. I am ready for it to be bedtime already. Oh what fun!
Apr 4, 2011
I am going to a gym today and I am really not looking forward to it. I have a hour training session with a personal trainer and I am sure he is just going to kill me. I won't be able to move tomorrow for sure! BUT, I am ready to get my body back. Ready to have more energy and be able to move better. Now Zumba sounds fun. Just the name itself is fun. I wanna Zoooooommmbaaaa! Ha Ha!!
Anyway, I will fill anyone that is listening in on how I feel tomorrow.
Cya
Anyway, I will fill anyone that is listening in on how I feel tomorrow.
Cya
Apr 1, 2011
Salty Mama: Dreams
Salty Mama: Dreams: "You know....I dream just like anyone else. I dream when I sleep, when I am awake, and I dream of all of the things I want in life.&nbs..."
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